Since my last treatment almost 4 weeks ago I have been away from cancer land. I have been feeling really good. I have been enjoying life, normal life. Other than the fact that I still have barly any hair I do not feel like a cancer patient anymore. My energy level has been steadily climbing and I have been finally able to sleep without taking medication. I have been cooking and cleaning and enjoying everyday things. I have been very happy and thankful that I made it through my treatments relitivly unscathed. I do have my moments though and am sure they will fade with time. Sometimes I get these little panic attacks. This comes from being in touch with mortality I think. They have been less and less frequent.
The other day I went on a little adverture with my family that is here visiting from out of town. It involved a long hike and lots of climbing. I would not have been able to do this three weeks ago. As we walked back afterwards I realized how good I felt and how I was not fatigued. It was a really good feeling. I felt invigorated, triumphant and thankful all at the same time!