I am a worrier, plain and simple. Being a worrier does not go well with being a cancer survivor. With every little pang of pain or discomfort I am convinced that my cancer is back. For the last few days I have been on edge because I have had a little bit pain on my left side, my cancer side. Under my arm and under my implant. I go back and forth constantly, should I call my doctor? Or, am I crazy? It is difficult to know. I have never been so scared in my life (well that’s not true, I was more scared the day the doctor told me I had cancer).
My next appointment is December 11th. Do I wait? Go then? or go earlier? It has been three months since my last doctors appointment. Is it normal to still be uncomfortable after a mastectomy and reconstruction after nine months?
I guess the feeling never really goes away. At this time last year I was in pain and had not seen my doctor yet. I knew I had a lump and It hurt. My surgeon said before I had my surgery “cancer doesn’t hurt” Mine did, I was in a lot of pain. A couple of people I have talked to have said the same thing. The pain was a good thing for me though. If I had not had it I would not have gone to the doctor in the first place.
But I still WORRY!………..