A year ago yesterday my world stood still. I was diagnosed with triple negative IDC Invasive ductal carcinoma, at the age of 42. My thoughts were of my children and my husband, and how unfair it was to them. How could they go through such a thing and be ok? How could my body betray me so? They told me I would lose my breasts. They told me I would lose my hair, they would pump poison through my veins to kill my cancer. I would be sick and tired. How could I do it? I could not even say it out loud. How could I tell my children that I have cancer? What would they ask me? How would I answer their questions without scaring them? How would we make it through all this devastation?
I did it! I faced my cancer head on, one day at a time. I kicked it’s ass! I had my surgery, I lost my hair, I made it through my chemo without being too sick but a little lot tired. I regained my strength, My life returned to normal. My girls are strong and brave. My husband is amazing and picked up all the pieces, of me and our home. How could I ever doubt that we could do it? “It’s just a bump in the road” my husband told me on that day, riding home in the car. “It’s just a bump in the road”.
Yesterday was a day of celebration in our home. A day of happiness and love (and chocolate). I spent the day enjoying my family. Laughing, living and loving.
I started my day with Starbucks and a blueberry scone. I read a good book. I had my favorite pasta, and my favorite white wine. The girls and I made a decadent chocolate dessert, and enjoyed it after dinner. (I had some for breakfast this morning too!)
Breasts cancer changed my life. I am a different person than I was a year ago. I never thought I could do it. How does anyone know? With the support of my family and friends. I made it through the fight of my life. I made new friends. I became active in a young survivors support group. I created my own blog, and have connected with survivors all over the world. I have helped other survivors here at home and through my blog and by writing with other Mothers With Cancer. I am a mother, I am a wife, I am a friend, I am a blogger, I am a survivor.
Thank you to everyone who has touched my life this year. Helped me thorough my tough days. I could not have done it without you!
Cross Posted on Spruce Hill.