I have had a hard week this week. A member of my(home) support group died last Sunday. Our group met on Thursday for our regular meeting. It was a hard meeting. It was just what we all needed though. Sitting there surrounded by all these woman who all are going though the same thing was a comfort to me, and having all of you out there in cyber space helps even more. It helps knowing that we are not alone. After we had all talked for a while another member announced that she has brain mets and was going to start radiation this week. Like I said it was a hard meeting. We all have each other to lean on and I would not trade that for anything. Being in a cancer support group you know at sometime you will lose someone, a friend. I am glad I have met these woman. I know I was ment to meet these woman. It is hard, but it would be harder not having them at all.
Losing someone in group brings up all those emotions again. The fear, and the panic that you get first when you are diagnosed. It takes hold of you and does not want to let go. Every ache and pain scares the crap out of you.
I know I have an angel looking over me, and knowing she is there and that she was strong and fought hard gives me the strength to fight just as hard.