Happy Days…

I am just so very happy my friends, you won’t believe this but the terrible, debilitating pain I have been suffering for so very long has gone! I haven’t said anything earlier as I felt I might jinx myself somehow, I needed to wait a while and make sure that it had really gone before I passed on the wonderful news. It all came to a head a couple of Monday’s ago, the 2nd of March to be exact. The weekend leading up to that Monday was one of the worst bouts of pain I’d had in terms of not getting a break from it. I had to lie down most of the week and then that entire weekend I could not get off the couch for more than about 2 minutes before the pain would start and I would have to race back to the couch and lie down because I couldn’t stand it. I was getting very depressed and was thinking I’d have to get a wheel chair so that I could go to chemo, or anywhere else I needed to go. Anyway I put up with it all weekend as there wasn’t much I could do about it. Monday morning I phoned my pain specialist and told him where I was at and he suggested that I come into the unit (hospice) undergo some drug therapy and hope that that helps. I told him I would think about it. I got off the phone utterly sick and tired of the same answers that never seemed to work for long enough and always involved me having to go on heavy drugs. As I was thinking about all of this, I suddenly remembered another tablet that my pain specialist had told me to try a few weeks back. I didn’t end up trying it because I didn’t like the side effects that went with it and frankly I didn’t believe that another tablet was the answer. Well, I decided that I may as well give it a try since I was only going to end up back in hospice on strong drugs anyway. I took one that lunchtime and another after dinner and by later that night was out of pain. Little by little, day by day, the pain got less and less until it has been completely gone for four days! I am just so thrilled and really amazed too as I would never have believed that taking that one extra tablet would have made such an enormous difference. I am just so very glad I remembered the tablet and took it.

The one good thing that has come out of so much suffering is the enormous capacity I now have for joy and peace. I can feel joy so easily. The most simple things can delight me and I feel so warm and happy inside. I am so very grateful to feel comfortable, I revel in it and I can now enjoy the days of my life for however long I’ve got left. I didn’t want to waste a moment in pain and agony especially when my time was so precious. So, that is the latest news and so nice to share something good with you for a change, take care everyone…
Oh and I didn’t even need the marijuana!


10 Responses to Happy Days…

  1. Andrea says:

    What WONDERFUL news, in the midst of such awful news around the country and world. How grateful I am to you that you shared this with us. It has lifted me up too. I’m so glad, honey, you’re feeling better. Hallelujah! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. Spruce Hill says:

    I am so glad that your pain is less ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. lorri steer says:

    That’s such great news! I’m so glad you aren’t suffering in pain anymore!

  4. francesbarrie says:

    That’s fantastic news. Thanks for sharing your relief with us!

  5. Jo Jo says:

    Congratulations! This reminds me of how important it can be to take someone with us to doctor appointments. I wish someone had reminded you of the other pill sooner!

    Best Wishes.

  6. It is always wonderful to read good news, even when it is bittersweet.

    Pain is so debilitating, it can take all the joy out of living.

    I am so glad that you can spend your time enjoying your family.

  7. whymommy says:

    Jen, this is wonderful, wonderful news.

    Pain is AWFUL and I’m glad that it’s so much better for you now.

    Wonderful. Enjoy the happy days!

  8. Thank you all so much, your happiness for me touches my heart – Hugs to all of you xxxxxxxxxx

  9. bcjenster says:

    Oh Jen! What a wonderful surprise! I’m so glad for you. Really, really joyful for you! I may even get up and dance a jig in your honor!!

  10. Jennifer says:

    Why is it that we only gain such perspective on joy and peace by going through such an extreme trial? I’m so glad to hear of your relief of such awful pain.
    Much love!

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