My friends/church are saying a novena for my healing, starting tonight. Being a new Catholic, I’m only starting to learn about formal prayers like this, but I welcome it. Colleen will lead us through what to say and what it means over here (or you can download the printable version). All are welcome.
It is true, I have prayed for healing before, and so many prayers have been said on my behalf. I know it gives me strength and hope. I have faith that if it is God’s will, I will be healed.
When we arrived home from the grocery store this afternoon (stocking up on milk and bread before this evening’s storm), there was a hang-tag on the door that said that flowers had been left at the neighbor’s for me. Surprised, I checked on a family down the street, as they shoveled their driveway with children in tow, and then walked across to her house. She met me on the snow-covered lawn, holding these daisies in her hands and saying, “They’re beautiful.”
Well, of course they were, and of course we lingered to chat. We’re two who could easily be good friends, if not for all the things that separate us, not least the six children, mine all boys and hers all girls, that span the ages from newborn to nine. And yet we hardly ever see each other, and our houses keep each other company while we remain almost-strangers.
Today we lingered, and when she asked, “How are you?” it just all spilled out, how we had gone to get a scan to see the good news that the cancer was gone, but it was back instead, and how I was in a clinical trial and hopeful and positive but still I’d really rather not be here again. I stopped and looked at her, embarrassed that I had let all that out, for I don’t really talk about it out loud, and she looked at me and said, “My mother has cancer.” Her mother was just diagnosed with stage 1, a thousand miles away, and she’s suffering through radiation, harder at her age, I’m sure, and pretty discouraged about it to boot. We stayed and talked, and I don’t think I said anything too special as I answered her questions about radiation, about fatigue, about how to help her mother as she goes through treatment, but at the end, I hugged her, and she clasped my arm and said, “I think the flowers were meant to be.”
As I walked back home, I marveled at how the flowers had indeed already brought me a moment of cheer and friendship, and I hadn’t yet looked at the card. But when I looked at the card, I was blown away:
Dear Susan, We see the miracle in the beautiful daisies, so how can we not believe that there is a miracle left for you. We will keep praying as you keep fighting. Love –
And there it is. Do I believe in miracles? You bet. Always have. Is that incompatible with being a woman of science? I don’t think so. And neither did many great men and women through the ages. I don’t know how it all works together, I’ll admit, but I know enough to know that just because I don’t understand doesn’t mean that it isn’t true.
At school pickup today, a new friend pressed something into my hands, a relic, she said, and told me to take it, along with her prayers, she said. “I am praying for you,” she said, and she knows that God hears our prayers.
After three days break from the treatment, ordered by my doctor because I lost sensation in my fingertips and thumbs on Thursday, I’ve started taking the medicines again. That’s progress. That’s something. And the arms I’ve clasped today, the friends I’ve shared a smile and a hope with, the faith that has been spoken to me today by Catholic and Orthodox Jew, and the very fact that I’m here having a quiet moment with you — well, today has been a very good day.
And as for the princess? Well, she keeps popping up on blogs, and she and I spent the early part of the afternoon with Little Bear, building a replica of our house.
Originally posted at Toddler Planet, January 31, 2011