Meanings by Stella

I never asked “why me”.  I always thought “better me”.

Today is one of those days that reinforces that.

We have a good friend whose girlfriend has been diagnosed with breast cancer.  I’ve never met her.  But through him I am able to help.  I can offer advice.  Help for nausea.  Advice on hair loss.  Disability is available.  It’s a reprieve.  Take it.  I have hats and beanies.  They are hers for the taking.

It feels good.

It feels right.

It feels like that year or so five years ago weren’t for naught.

I don’t pretend to know God’s plans.

I really have no credible idea why I am still here and others are not.

God knows.  He has vision.  He sees the big picture.

I know I’m the Cheese.

I know not everyone survives.

I know I may not always survive.

But I also know that I can help.

I offer hope.  I offer help.  I offer insight.

How can I run from that?

Who can really ask for more from life?

cross-posted to I Can’t Complain Any More Than Usual 

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19 Responses to Meanings by Stella

  1. Claudia Barron says:
    March 11, 2012 at 5:51 pm

    Thanks for sharing! I feel exactly the same. Being able to share with those experiencing what we did is so worth it! Blessings!

  2. Stacey Berry says:
    March 11, 2012 at 11:22 pm

    I relate so much to your post. The past two weeks I have had a family staying with me on vacation. The 56 year old mother of 3, mostly grown children lost her hair from her first chemo treatment. I had a lot to offer for tips on hair and staying covered from the sun. We are a family of women. We are mothers and daughters, grandmas and grandchildren. We know so much.

  3. Jenster says:
    March 12, 2012 at 6:43 pm

    And that, my dear, is what it all comes down to. If any of us had to go through all the hell we may as well make it count.

    Thanks for making it count so well!

  4. Katie the Blog Lady says:
    March 13, 2012 at 12:36 pm

    Hi Stella – I just recently stumbled upon this website and read about your success beating triple negative breast cancer. You give me hope as I am also a triple negative breast cancer patient as well. I recently had my third dose of AC chemotherapy and I’ve found that this journey is as mentally challenging as it is physically. I try to keep a sense of humor about it but there’s no doubt it is just outright scary. I have a 4 year old little boy that needs his mommy – so I have to wipe away the tears and live each day to the fullest. I am so thankful to have found this resource!

  5. It's Just About The Hair! says:
    March 23, 2012 at 12:58 am

    I have been struggling with treatment for Infiltrating and Invasive Breast Cancer Stage 3 (a) since June 2011. I feel 1/2 dead; they say I’ll live. I am 56 years old, mother of 4, grandmother of 8. To them I am a superhero; to me I am failing. I think that is the hardest part. How do we do that part? I look forward to following this blog and maybe we can be superheros together, inspite of Breast Cancer!

  6. angela says:
    March 29, 2012 at 1:11 am

    this really moved me and i totally relate and understand. i am still in the fight daily. i don’t know why i am still here. almost every year i have some major crisis and i always manage to pull through. i’m glad you can help.

    anegla

  7. Stella says:
    March 29, 2012 at 11:23 am

    One day at at time! That’s really all we can do. I don’t worry about tomorrow… but I finally feel comfortable planning for it. Just put one foot in front of the other each and every day!

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    April 3, 2012 at 3:06 am

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  13. Andrea says:
    April 6, 2012 at 9:18 am

    You are right, those days when we offer hope, help or inspiration to others make it (almost) worth it. Thank you for being an inspiration.

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